How much longer am I going to be able to carry on smoking? It's so miserable. At least coke users have the dignity of being able to snort it off a toilet in privacy. SoHo smokers have to stand on the cramped streets, on diplay like we're in the stocks.
Tourists tut at us, whores give us pitying looks, beggars swarm over us.
I had visions of a glorious last summer of smoking, basking on hot cobbles, laughing with all the beautiful people while the squares sat in their boring little smoke-free bars wondering where all the fun is.
Instead, I sat sheltering from the rain and the wind, under a torn awning outside Rupert St of all places.
The one thing I forgot - while Glasgow, Edinburgh and even Cardiff have lots of space for gardens and wide pavements, SoHo doesn't - if you smoke, there's only the gutter.
I hate that I'll give up smoking simply cos it's stopped being fun.